#25 You have beautiful teeth! Now give me $3000…..

Posted on September 1, 2010 by dezolutions2010

25 is COMPLETE!!!!!

I went to my dentist this morning….

At first when I walked in, the initial “dentist smell” hit me and I almost threw up, literally. I was dry heave’n in the waiting room. It wasn’t stinky, it just triggered a sensitive memory of fear and anxiety and gave me the stress voms… ;)

Everyone was so amazingly nice. The hygenist was super sweet and gentle, the Doctor was funny, honest and caring! I think I found my dentist to stay!! I am VERY impressed.

Something else I was impressed with…was the technology!!! Now I know I haven’t been to the dentist in over 3.5 years, but I was blown away! Everything is digital! There is a computer screen in front of me and behind me, and she took the x-rays and they pop right up on the screen! And the doctor zoomed in and out, made it lighter or darker to find all the weak spots. Then… they have a tiny little digital camera and took pictures of teeth!! I’m a nerd-girl through and through, and I LOVE technology. I was super happy about this program Dentrix! He explained everything to me, and I didn’t feel like I was getting the wool pulled over my eyes.

As far as my exam… I have NEVER had such a good…well… ‘report card’ as I do now. I’ve always had “300 cavities, a chipped tooth, tartar build up, infection in the gums, a small family of garden gnomes moved in behind your molar“.

Both my doctor AND hygenist told me I had a very good set of teeth for not going to the dentist in almost 4years. No tartar build up, no bleeding gums, strong teeth.

I’m a flosser AND a picker :) I bought one of those metal dental scythes… 

I mean….a metal pick, and remove the tartar myself year round.

Plus I brush a lot…and try to floss after every meal. Not because I’m obsessive… because I have food in my teeth and I can’t stand it, so it’s a habit.

My report Card:

- 2 Cavities

-1 Broken tooth that needs to be fixed with a ROOT CANAL and a crown

- Cosmetic refillings on the front 6 teeth, bleaching, reshaping etc..

My dentist happens to specialize in  cosmetic dentistry. I thought I was self concious before about my front 6 teeth… but he really drove it home. “Front teeth? Not good. No cavities, but your old fillings are too dark. I can see where the other dentists may have chipped and dented this tooth here. Let’s bleach’m, redo your bonded teeth. You have a mark there from your braces, lets get rid of that too. You have potential, but they’re not good right now.” Amazingly, this didn’t offend me.  I like his honesty, and lets face it, this is WHAT he does. I’ve always wanted those teeth fixed, and here is someone telling me they can do it.

I didn’t cry till I got to the front counter for my estimate….

JUST for the two fillings, root canal and temporary crown = $2062 OUT of pocket

#

In 2011, when the insurance calendar starts again…

To JUST get my permanent crown = $1013 OUT of pocket

I didn’t even get an estimate on my cosmetic work, even if my insurance  hadn’t run out I’m sure wouldn’t be covered anyway.

Here we go again… another giant bill. I literally cried the whole way home. With my other hospital bill from a couple weeks ago, and another pending surgery bill around the corner… not to mention trying to see a nutritionist and finding a gym come winter, it was a lot to swallow in terms of paying for my health care. So, I’m feeling a bit lost at the moment.  A pity party if you will, and everyones invited! :)

I never understood why dental insurance only covers $1000 a year? Does no one else get cavities??

BUT….

I know I’m luckier than most. I am watching my poor parents get all these painful surgeries and gigantic bills for their dentist procedures, and $3000 is chump change in comparison. Their one word of advice to me is “go to the dentist NOW before you get to my stage”. Watching someone go through that, and heeding their advice on how to avoid it… always a rule of thumb in my book.

I just gotta take some time and prioritize a few things…. perhaps pick up a second job….anyone hiring!!? :)

Till then, I’ll just dance on the sidewalk and panhandle for change  holding a sign: “Groove this beat, to save my Teeth!”

:D

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#25 Holy crap, I’m going to the dentist tomorrow….

Posted on August 31, 2010 by dezolutions2010

I really thought I wouldn’t make this Dezolution, honestly…

I knew if I didn’t make the appointment now, I would never go. I took a very great recommendation from my Mom and made an appt with her dentist. If you remember this post….and how terrified I am of the dentist, you know this was no easy task.

I literally woke up and said “Yup, its now or never”. So I called, expecting to have a month or two waiting period… and she said… “How’s this Wednesday at 8 o’clock ?”

What I heard was: “Would you like to die on Wednesday at 8 o’clock?”

I didn’t even think, I just started getting teary eyed and inadvertently yelled like a crazy person “YES 8 O’CLOCK WOULD BE FINE FOR ME!!!!!!!!”

If I didn’t have time to dwell and worry myself into a tizzy, the easier it would be. I told them what a scaredy-cat I was, and she said to me “Oh don’t you worry sweetie, if you get scared, just ask for me and I’ll come back and hold your hand”

Seriously!?? I’m hooked. I don’t care if I’m 27… I want her to hold my hand.

See, I’ve had terrible terrible luck with dentists. Expensive AND painful. I can deal with one or the other. I can’t pay for something that hurty… It doesn’t make sense in my brain.

My poor broken tooth, that is now over a year old, has started throbbing. Not hurting really, but just letting me know “Hey a-hole! You gonna fix me yet!? I’m still here!!”

So tomorrow morning… at 8am… I’ll be having a cleaning, exam and an estimate of all the work I need (I’m sure a few cavities and maybe a crown for my broken tooth).  I’d like to talk about fixing up the work on my front teeth that previous dentists have dinged, shaped incorrectly &  marked up, I’m still pretty self-conscious about them :(

So here’s hope’n for a new dentist that will hold my hand, make it not hurt, and make it easy on the wallet.

Stay tuned for my update tomorrow :)

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First day on my “diet”

Posted on August 27, 2010 by dezolutions2010

I hate the word diet. It has such a negative connotation.

I’m gonna call it “food makeover”. Doesn’t that sounds like Tim Gunn is going to tell you to “make that sammich work!!” Or Stacy and Clinton will be watching you on a hidden camera and be so impressed you put down that cupcake. WAY better than “diet” … for cripe sakes it has the word ‘DIE’ IN it!

So, as I stated yesterday, I was suppose to keep my calories at 2000. I actually kept it at 1480!!

Here’s my food log for the day!

The thought of 1500 calories or less make me sadder than homeless puppies. BUT…  honest to god it wasn’t hard. After dinner I still had 600 calories to go… I couldn’t imagine eating 600 MORE calories. So I watch the Situation ‘put the hippopotamus to bed’…..and then put myself to bed.

PS: I don’t think I can watch Jersey Shore anymore (yes, I love trashy reality TV). His blatant cruel slams for women actually offended me. Homegirl Hippopotamus wasn’t “big” by any stretch of the imagination. ‘grenades, land mines, hippos’. C’mon, are you kidding me? Completely shallow, and although entertaining at first, it dawned on me. These girls are going to see this as it airs, and their friends and family. How embarrassing. And its not funny anymore. Why should hurting someones feelings be entertaining? I realize that IS the appeal of the show. ’Guidos & Guidettes get’n crazy in Miami’.  Judging people solely based on looks, everyone does it, but to be so public, proud, and get $10 million dollars in endorsement deals for being a prick? Not OK in my book. As much as I love my  Vinny, Snook-Snook and Sammi, I don’t know if I can witness anymore bad situations…  Ironically,  I chose to talk about bad-mouth’n “fat girls” as I talk about losing weight in the same post?  It’s good timing. Healthy for yourself ladies, not for the wrong reasons.

Moving on…

So at 1500 calories, I wasn’t hungry, really. Yesterday was also a ‘rest day’. I still walked for an hour, but it wasn’t a high intensity workout that I usually do. We’ll see if hunger plays a role on the days I work out harder!

I’m also love’n the website to log everything in! This morning I got a reminder email to work out today, because I need 150 minutes per week to burn off the difference of calories!

Day 2, and I’m still pretty excited :)

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My Date with a Nutritionist…

Posted on August 26, 2010 by dezolutions2010

So I thought I have been eating well and exercising enough to lose weight. I did lose 15lbs, but that was a year ago, and I still haven’t lost anything since.  I knew something wasn’t right, so I made an appointment with a nutritionist my doctor recommended.

A tip for visiting a nutritionist? BE PREPARED! Bring a food journal with you (that counts calories AND moods), along with your workout schedule. If you do, you just saved yourself a co-pay and another appointment. Because they will make you START a journal and exercise log, and tell you to come back.

The Type-A personality that  I am, I already had my charts and graphs and pie charts (mmmmm pie…) and ready with questions and ready to be critiqued!

She looked over everything, and shook her head and said “I have no idea why you’re not losing weight”

The 3rd doctor to tell me this….

4 weeks ago, I got my thyroid checked, tested for diabetes, cholesterol is great, great blood pressure. I’m as healthy as an ox… a cute chubby bubble butt-ed ox…. (pause for visual image…)

She says: Your calories are perfect, you exercise enough, you eat the right foods. It’s really tricky, so lets tackle one or two variables at a time.

#1. Keep an eye on your percentages.  45% Carbs, 30% Protein and 25% Fat. And I can still have my lattes in the morning (WOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO). Keep my calories at 2000 per day, and exercise normally.

#2 Talk to an exercise specialist / personal trainer. She noticed I do lots of different exercises, which is great, see if they can modify it for MORE intensity.

She then gives me a password to  log onto a website called Nutriinfo.com. This was my favorite part of the appointment!!!!

(those aren’t my stats, clearly)

The website is an online food journal, which I have done before, but it has SOOOO many more features than other ones I’ve used! And get this… SHE has access to it, and she will read it AND make comments and suggestions on my profile!! I love technology! The website also sends you email alerts if you happen to forget to log in food, or exercise. Imagine that! I don’t want to get an email everyday because I missed a workout, or I had a side of chocolate cake with my macaroni and cheese. There is something about being held accountable for your actions, especially if someone else is watching, that really makes you stay on point.

Some people may not know this about me, but I LOVE feedback. Not to be scrutinized, or to be malicious to me. But if a person has good intentions of advice, I will GLADLY take it. Even if it means they have to tell me what I’m doing is wrong. How else do you get better??

Here is a screenshot of my food log today! Super easy user interface!

My amazing boyfriend, went food shopping for us this week and got all healthy stuff! He’s on the healthy kick too. I douched out my fridge and pantry, and got rid of half full bottles of condiments that took up all our space.  BBQ sauce, alfredo sauce, fancy mustards, relish, marinades, old cheese, mayo, tartar sauce… gone. Now, not to say I fully wasted them.. they were VERY old and half gone. But just throwing away not-great-for-you foods made it really feel like I was starting over. Hit up the pantry, out with all the moldy bread, the stale chips, dusted off the cans of beans and non-expired healthy soup!

I dont know about you guys, but if there are a ton of dishes in the sink, I NEVER want to cook. SO, I made sure all the dishes were done, counters immaculate, fruit bowl full, stove cleaned. A nice clean slate to cook my meals.

I’m excited about the process, I’ve been in and out of doctors for weeks now, in a possibly related issue as to why I’m not losing weight, we’ll talk about that next time! I’ll keep updates about my nutritional journey! Does anyone else use Nutriinfo.com?

On my way out of the office, she mentioned ‘It’s deceiving, your weight. You have a nice figure, small little waist, that’s a good thing!’

 Damn skippy it is!! ;)

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#24 Arts & Farts

Posted on August 24, 2010 by dezolutions2010

{Fun DIY craft project at the bottom, if you can make it through all these boring words……….}

Crafting, it isn’t just for the gramas or lonely people.

I LOVE crafting. Attending crafting parties, it’s like summer camp, except with more wine and more gossip ;)

There is something inspiring about just setting foot in an arts supply store. I want EVERYTHING. I want to DO everything. I’m not an illustrator, and I’m not very good at painting either. But I LOVE working with textiles, print, papers, frames and building stuff! I love building things!! Give me an 8 drawer 6ft wide dresser with matching mirror and shelving unit and vanity chair from IKEA and I’ll put that bad boy together before you even wake up to do your morning pee.

Some of my favorite stores are Paper Source, Pearl (R.I.P!! No longer open :( ) Michaels, A.C. Moore, Utrecht, Bob Slate.

My FAVORITE website for DIY ideas and tips, is Design Sponge.

A few of  my favorite magazines are Real Simple and Design it Yourself by Better Home & Gardens.

Lemme tell you about my creative side… waaaaaay back.

*Waynes World finger waves* Dooolooo doooolooooo dooolooo

When I was younger, I was a reader, not a ‘drawer’. And with reading, came writing. I use to write alllll sorts of stories. I’m sure I got most of my silly stories from the millions of books I was reading each week.

I slowly started into drawing… NOT drawing ponies and butterflies and turkey hands.

I started drawings ‘Inventions’. Anything I thought would make my life easier, I would draw. Sometimes they were cool toys, other times they were household items. I ACTUALLY came up with the Miracle Gro attachment you put on a hose to water your lawn/flowerbed. This was 19+ years ago. I’m sure my parents will still fight me on it… but I made it up damn it! Either way, my parents were great in the way that all patronizing parents had to be… Hung up my umpteenth “invention” on the fridge and praise me. “Honey SOOOOOO creative! You can grow up to be an inventor! Or  toy designer! Or an architect!” God bless’m. I’ll just keep my ‘modified My Little Ponies’ drawings in my desk from now on.

Jump ahead 15 years, I was more into reading and writing throughout this time. It wasn’t until 2007 in Michigan, while I was bored out of my mind in East Lansing. My boyfriend had been there on business, and I was stuck for 8 hours wandering around. It was cold and rainy, and all the students were on break. I was bored. So I went to a local book store, hung out there till I found a book about origami. Got some origami paper, and sat in Starbucks and spent what was close to 5 hours folding every single example in that book. I took to it like a paper-moth-folded-72-times to a flame.

I studied more and learned about a Senbazuru also known as A Thousand Cranes. It’s said the person who finishes a thousand cranes will have a wish come true.  It also has this deep meaning:

The Thousand Origami Cranes has become a symbol of world peace through the story of Sadako Sasaki, a Japanese girl who tried to stave off her death from leukemia as a result of radiation from the atomic bombing of Hiroshima during World War II by making one thousand origami cranes, having folded only 644 before her death, and that her friends completed and buried them all with her. (This is only one version of the story. Hiroshima Peace Memorial Museum states that she did, in fact, complete the 1,000 cranes.)

I decided this would be my new goal. I only got to 350. My cats also LOVED these paper cranes, and thought they were toys. I probably made close to 450, but I would find my ‘dead cranes’ all over the house. After about 4 months, we were moving… I tried to pack them a neatly as possible, but they did not survive the move. Crushed and ripped. My wish never came true :( (you crying yet? why not? this is wicked sad stuff dude…). Perhaps this was the beginning of my paper fetish.

But this was the gate that opened my creative outlet. I really got involved with jewelry making. I even had a consignment in Cambridge and did pretty well. Then, ventured over to Etsy! It was an expensive hobby, and I certainly didn’t turn a profit, but it kept me busy and I had something else to break the ice with. Sometimes hobbies are just that… something to break the ice. Since there are a lot of words in this post so far, I figured I’d put up a few pictures of my work!

This was at a showcase in Cambridge! So much fun!

I don’t sell anything now, actively anyway. If the mood strikes I’ll hit up Beadworks. But other than that, I just make it for friends or family. Or special request if you like what you see ;)

From jewelry, I went on to photography. Still a hobby I love. I was even that nerd who signed up for Photography Club in college. MAN, were those some talented people!!  I even had the option of showcasing my photos, but I was in a huge time crunch. But, YOOOOU guys can take a look!

It may not be the best, but it was way more fun for me anyway ( :

 

Finally, I moved on to “building things”. (Sigh) I love it! This next project was done at a craft party with me and Jane!(WOOHOO)

You just need these things:

Picture Frame
Pretty paper
Glue stick
Small ‘picture framing’ hooks and hardware or pretty pushpin hooks.
 

To Make: A framed jewelry holder! Less than $20 for all the supplies!

 

 I made two!

 

 

1. Remove the glass from the frame.

2. Remove the back of the frame, rub the glue stick all over the hard cardboard, and place the pretty paper over it. Make sure you cut it to the appropriate size.

*TIP* Make sure the paper is thicker, which most pretty paper is. It doesn’t work so well with origami paper. Pretty wrapping paper works well too.

3. Stick the hooks through the paper/cardboard of the frame. When I suggest picture framing hooks, it just because they are shaped like a question mark and holds the jewelry better.

 

Let it dry, and if it nails stick too far out in the back, you can get a hot glue gun and glue another piece of cardboard. You can also add rubber erasers to the back for an easier fix. You can either have it stand up as a frame, or mount it on the wall. I chose to mount both of them! One of the frames was actually a shadow box, and it makes a great little shelf for extra rings or pendants!

I hope you likey! I’d love to see some pictures and ideas for your creative DIY!

Email me at dezolutions@gmail.com  or leave a comment for your fave DIY projects!!

 

Stay tuned for some more crafty crafts!!

 

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Healthylivingblogs.com

Posted on August 22, 2010 by dezolutions2010

Healthy Living Blogs is a new resource for the health blogging community. Created by Lindsey of Sound Eats, HLB is a site designed to enhance the positive community of the healthy living blog world. Bloggers and readers can explore the site and find more blogs to love, bloggers in their area, and forums to deepen healthy discussion and support.

 If you’re interested in having your site listed on HLB, simply send the following information to healthylivingblogs@gmail.com and check the site out for yourself!

-Email subject line: MEMBERS
-Your name (please share if you prefer to go by first name, first and last, or however you prefer to be known on the Internet)
-Blog Name
-Blog URL (please start with http://, not www.)
-Your twitter handle, if applicable
-Your location (if you prefer not to disclose this information for privacy’s sake, that is completely understandable. We’ll simply include your blog listing in the A-Z listing, not by location, too)
-Any specific labels (i.e. vegan, gluten-free, weight loss, running, etc.)

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Blondes are noticed but redheads are never forgotten…

Posted on August 22, 2010 by dezolutions2010

“Once in his life, every man is entitled to fall madly in love with a gorgeous redhead.” – Lucille Ball

So, we remember my post about what color/style I was teetering on. I decided.

Red *POW!*

And I absolutely love it.  Straight outta the box.  It was immediately vetoed by my mother, per usual, but it grew on her. Now she really likes it. She likes me better as a blonde. I like a little more color in my life :) It’s as natural as fake can be, and work friendly.

I had a nurse come over the other day, and literally pet my head. “WOW!! You have such amazing hair!!” She thought it was my natural color. I was flattered. It doesn’t LOOK fake… but it certainly doesn’t look like the color I was born with, even though my father IS a natural Ginger.

Here is the before color:

And the after:

Thank goodness for green eyes!

I decided on my birthday, which was just this Wednesday, I needed a little change.  So, I bought a box of hair color, called for a referral to my local nutritionist and hit the weights.

For some reason, this picture makes me look super jacked. I promise, I’m no AH-NALD. I hope you got tickets…. to the GUN show. *Pow pow* (I’m doin’ lots of POW’s  in this post….)

Why a nutritionist, Dez!?? You eat so well!

Yes..I do. But I bet I could eat better. Who couldn’t?? I need to learn more about food combinations, and other safer options than oatmeal every morning. What is a great post-workout snack for my body? Do I have any food allergies?How can food now work in my favor, rather than dissecting every morsel and putting it under a microscope? Food = fuel, so I’m trying to find the most efficient way to get my time/moneys worth! Are my portions really, well, proportional? I’ve lost some weight, and clearly packing on more muscle than I thought, but how about some smaller clothes pleeeeease? ;) I’m ready to get this show on the road. Gotta get my interval training nice and organized and settle down on a nice work out schedule. I used this birthday to reflect on what is important in my life…and making time to workout and cook  & eat well, is HIGH on my list.

I’m here to *UUHH* PUMP.. YOU UP.

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#18. Auntie in Florida or BUST!

Posted on August 21, 2010 by dezolutions2010

THAAAAAAAAAAAAAT’s right!

I finally bought my tickets to go see my Auntie in Florida! I got my vacation approved from work on my birthday (the 18th) and that night I went  home and bought tickets for 9 days 8 nights to the Emerald Coast.

Yes, that’s right. Where the oil spill is affecting. But the beaches are clear, safe and beautiful. It is affecting tourism so the tickets are cheap cheap cheap.

The area is still gorgeous and thriving, go down and visit!!! $168  roundtrip for on-peak times on weekend departures and arrivals! I’ve never seen beaches like these. Pure white sand, green and blue waters. Just gorgeous.

This is my Auntie and I in Florida March 2009, at Hogs Breath! SO much fun!!

My Auntie and I share a special bond. I was lucky enough to live with her for most of my childhood. When we were around 2yrs old, up till FOREVER, my Auntie has always been in my life. We have a lot in common. Same looking feet, same super loud rip-roaring laugh, same sense of humor, same mannerisms. In fact, many of our relatives mistakenly call me ‘Jacqueline’. We looked a lot alike at certain ages. And we even have our own language (issa NYE NYE tawk).

She moved away when I was probably 12 or so, and it broke my little heart (Auntie, I know you’re reading this, you feel guilty yet? ;) ) So as soon as I was old enough, I bought plane tickets out to see her. And have so a few times.

There are soooooooooooo many amazing memories and inside joke with my Auntie, and I can’t possibly explain all of them or why they’re so funny. But she is just one of those people who recharge you when you’re around them.

One of my favorite gifts she has ever given me, was my charm bracelet. (She is a very very thoughtful gift giver!)

She picked out a bunch, then took me back to Elizabethtown, Kentucky where I added on a few more from this HUGE charm store! I love this piece of jewelry, every charm has a special meaning! :)

I knew I had to make it a Dezolution to go back for a visit! If not for my own sanity! I miss her like crazy, and she has been there for me so much (for someone that long distance too).

And lets face it… I need a vacaaaaaaaaaaaaaaation. What better way to spend it, than with my Auntie.

There is also talk of going to New Orleans while I’m down there…which would cross off #3 Dezolution of ‘Visiting a new State’.

October 22nd can’t get here fast enough.. WOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! :)

And my Aunt is an amazing cosmetology/hair stylist…and I must say, I contributed to where she is today. I was her test dummy for many years….

This is what it looks like when your Aunt is going to beauty school, in the 80′s,  in Las Vegas (where we lived) when you’re 4yrs old…

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#21 The Temper Trap & Florence & The Machine!

Posted on August 16, 2010 by dezolutions2010

I have loved The Temper Trap since I saw 500 Days of Summer and heard ‘Sweet Disposition’. I couldn’t wait to run out and buy the album, but it wasn’t on sale in the U.S. or even available online/iTunes! I had to wait a few weeks, and bought it the day it came to iTunes.

And I SWEAT that album!!

I actually got to see them last year at Great Scott (Thank you Tracy) and even got to meet some band members!

Yup, that close! Frontman Dougy Mandagi

I even met a really cool chick who drove all the way up form Jersey to see them! (Shout out to Mercybelle!)

They came back to Boston this year on St. Patricks day and played at O’Reillys. But they went on at 2pm on Wednesday and I couldn’t go! :( But as soon as they come back around, I KNEW I had to go see them again. And sure enough… House of Blues!! MUCH bigger venue! And a much bigger following… and the boyfriend bought me tickets for my birthday AND a few friends are coming! I’m definitely looking forward to this!

AAAAAAAAAND Florence + The Machine!

My friend Tracy (yes, the same Tracy from the Temper Trap show!) introduce me to Florence + The Machine. And it sat on repeat on my iPod for months! I promised myself if she ever comes to town, I WILL NOT MISS HER! And I’m not!! I bought tickets last night, again, at the House of Blues! I AM SOOOOOO EXCITED! She is performing ON Halloween, which should be a really fun and interesting night!

This is a pretty cool video, and also one of my favorite songs!

So, I’ve been lucky to see some of my favorite bands this year, Muse, Sia, now The Temper Trap & Florence + The Machine! Making time to see shows is a big deal for me, and I always get the most satisfaction from concerts than I would spending my money elsewhere.

I can officially check off this Dezolutions! :)

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Slump-a-dump.

Posted on August 15, 2010 by dezolutions2010

As you may notice, I didn’t keep with my ‘post every day’ goal. Trust me, it was nearly impossible to do so.

I am trying to gather as many interesting things as possible to blog about, but, I have burned myself out… again. Lots and lots and lots of work. On top of doing some big favors for a couple people and dealing with some medical scariness, PLUS….

My birthday is in 3 days.

Every year, I work on my birthday, but being 26yrs old, you pretty much have to work your birthday when you’re a big girl. But, I also don’t do anything for my birthday. Although, I do go out to dinner with my parents and boyfriend (and I LOVE that!).

I’m not sure why, but every year I cry on my birthday. It’s a tradition. I think I’m just mourning the loss of another year gone,and I’m getting older.  And this year, I’m sure, will be no exception. So every year, I try to make it as kick a$$ as possible by filling it with allllll the things I’ve always wanted to do. This years birthday I’m sure…with be my least favorite. I’ll share some details by the end of the month. Don’t be scared, everything is just fine :)

I do genuinely LIKE getting older. I can rent a car without an extra fee, people call me ma’am, I can even be taken more seriously, because “I like, sooooo know what like, I’m like, talking about. OMG JOURNEY!!! DOoooon’t stop Buh-leeeeave’n, hold on to that feeeeeeeel yayayan..”

This isn’t about my birthday really. I’m still maintaining a positive outlook. I love the way I spend my free time, but I just watched the summer fly by and I haven’t done all the outdoorsy stuff I wanted to.  This years schedule, kicked.my.booty.

But it’s not all bad! I’m going to see Temper Trap next month, AND Florence + The Machine in October AND going to Florida for a MUCH MUCH needed vacation. It’s been 18 months since I’ve had more than 3 days off in a row. I can see my cynicism taking over.  AND..

September = BEST MAGAZINES EVER!!!

I’m a huge magazine reader, and September always have the biggest, fattest heaviest issues full of goodness.

All in all, things aren’t too bad. I’m just, once again, burned out and I soooooooo need a vacation. I don’t ever want to lose my ‘light’! You know, that light inside where you smile because you are GENUINELY  in a good mood, the aura around you is bright and you can maintain your happiness despite all the crappy people and things around you.  I feel like my light is dimming…and I DON’T LIKE IT! I’m a happy person by nature, and I want it to stay that way damn it!

As you know, I like to end a good note.

Here you go. A cute picture of an otter.

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